Elliott Page Reveals 'Juno' Fame Almost Killed Him

by Emell Adolphus

EDGE Media Network Contributor

Wednesday June 22, 2022

Elliot Page
Elliot Page  (Source:Associated Press)

Since coming out as a transgender man in December 2020, Elliott Page has been free and feeling himself in social media posts showing off his toned physique and just how much more comfortable he is now in his own skin.

In a new essay for Esquire, Page opened up about fame, being forced to wear dresses and feeling joy that he "never really thought possible" possible after his transition.

"I feel lucky to be writing this. To be here. To have arrived at this place in my life," he wrote. "I can't begin to express how remarkable it feels to finally love who I am enough to pursue my authentic self."

However, being yourself and fame don't always mix, Page wrote. After becoming a breakout star in the 2007 film "Juno," fame and the pressure to be someone he was not almost killed him.

"I was closeted, dressed in heels and the whole look," he wrote. "I wasn't okay, and I didn't know how to talk about that with anyone."

At the Toronto Film Festival premier of the film, Elliot wanted to wear a suit, but "Fox Searchlight was basically like, 'No, you need to wear a dress,'" he remembers. "They had me wear a dress, and...that was that."

Meanwhile his co-star, Michael Cera, got to wear slacks and sneakers the whole time.

"It's easy for people to roll their eyes, but you know what? No. That was really extremely, extremely fucked up. Regardless of me being trans!" Page wrote. "I get that people don't understand. 'Oh, fuck you, you're famous, and you have money, and you had to wear a dress, boo-hoo.' I don't not understand that reaction. But that's mixed with: I wish people would understand that that shit literally did almost kill me."

For a while, Page said he "struggled with food. Intense depression, anxiety, severe panic attacks."

"I couldn't function," Page remembers. "In my early to mid-20s, I didn't know how to tell people how unwell I was. I would berate myself for it. I was living the life and my dreams were coming true, and all that was happening."

Since transitioning, and transitioning his character in Netflix's "Umbrella Academy," Page recently told host Seth Meyers that he is now just focused on the "joy I feel and the degree of presence I feel that I never really thought possible for a long, long time. That's what I'm focusing on and embracing."

In the end, Page said we are all victims of the binary. "I feel like it's so unfortunate because we're all on the same team here; whether you're trans, gender nonconforming, cis, we all have these expectations and these limits and constraints because of people's obsessions with the binary and how we are all supposed to live our lives," Elliot said. "So, to me, it'd be so special for us all to be able to connect and talk about how similar we are in all of our journeys."